How do I make a start? How do I muster up the courage to splash into the unfamiliar water that is homosexuality? I never really felt like I was in the closet...maybe its because the closet was somewhere in the dark, repressed recesses of my mind. Now that its at the fore, and I now know that I'm right in it, now that I'm beginning to understand and embrace my sexuality, I realise that I cant breathe! It feels like i have a fcuking pneumothorax.. its dark, damp, I'm scared, I'm sweating and Im alone...so alone!
I have many friends, but there's no one I could talk to and it sucks! I wish to god that I had a gay friend- Ive never even had a conversation with a gay dude- how fcuked up is that?!
I know it'd really help if I did though, ... at least there'd be someone standing right beside me in it or even on the other side of the closet that i could to talk to. Anyway, it is what it is! A series of stiff restoratives should fix me right up... for a couple of hours at least!
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Yeah dude. Welcome. I'm clearly not a guy, i'm not even gay, but i do have gay friends, and a gay housemate... After writing that i think it might come out wrong. Like a white dude saying 'i have black friends, so i know what black folk are about...' don't take it that way.
ReplyDeleteI like the blog though.
Hold on to you're sanity, and if you loose your grasp, it's cool, the world good do with a little more crazy :)
Queer etiquette demands that when a Kenyan gay blog goes live, they pop over to my spot and halla...am kidding.
ReplyDeleteWelcome to blogsophere.. it is really a fun place and you have company.
I will link back
Well said. I also have an obsession with cyber boys or at least i use to. Nice to see someone like me on here ha ha.
ReplyDeletehey guys, i came to accept myself like 1 month ago. its been really depressing and i feel more lonely than ever in spite of being sorrounded by thousands of people(niko kenyatta uni). since my discovery, i've had many sleepless nights worrying about my future. i wish there was someone i could talk to.
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