So there I was, dressed to impress in dark blue levi's, a brilliant white shirt and my tried and tested blue and white chucks- In short, looking sexy as a muthafucka.- I had to! Twas officially going to be the first day of the hunt! (kinda like in big cat diaries when the young lion cub goes for its first hunt) I was resolved to have some meaningful homosexual interaction.
Frankly, I was sick and tired of knowing the truth and doing nothing about it. Twas to be the day that some guy at gypsies will forever remember i.e. the day he met and had a conversation with kye!
The plan was simple: kick it with the boys for a bit, choke down a coupla stiff whiskys until tipsy then ooze out of their presence under the ruse that I was urgently required by my sister (who would just happen to be at gypsies), ... A solid plan (I thought).
Met up with the boys and we decided that our usual haunt (buffet park) was outta the question- too drab!
One of the boys, I'll call him BLAM (Big, Loud Alpha Male) Suggested that we hit Tamasha ( the one near carnivore) cuz he'd heard that its bursting at the seams with naive, fine young debutantes (his exact words were 'young chips funga bitches' but I guess the meaning is nearly the same)
Anyway, we kicked it till like midnight at which point I decided to execute the plan.
As soon as I mentioned the word 'gypsies' all four of them (especially BLAM and GOGTOG (GOds Gift TO Girls) burst into some of the loudest and most distressing laughter Ive heard interspersed with a coupla incriminations directed at me (which I vehemently denied), followed promptly by some of the most deliberate and concerted gay-bashing I've ever heard. Note:These were not your usual run-of -the-mill remarks against homosexuals that the boys generally get into whenever the topic comes up. This was tirade after tirade, insult after insult, and the bastards just wouldn’t stop!
I knew the insults were not aimed at me (I'm as straight as a fukcing arrow as far as they know) but it sure felt like it!
I dont know, maybe they were just being the boys they've always been and its my sensibilities that have changed but I just couldnt take it!
I barely managed to keep a stiff upper lip about the whole thing and told the boys that I was leaving.
By the time I got to the whip, I was seething with rage ( I hope none of the boys noticed) and as soon as I drove out, I totally lost it and burst into tears... Tears? Me? I still don't get it!!!! I havent cried since the patriots lost the superbowl and that was like 2 years ago!
Anyway, I drove straight home cuz I could neither flit nor flirt and it'd probably be a waste of time If I did go to gypsies. Perhaps next weekend... but I'm still trying to figure out why I reacted like that.
Uh huh! ...hmmm. *Thoughtful sigh*
ReplyDeleteI was at gypsy's and I really do wish you came. It was really kicking and in spite of what you may have heard, most of the people who hang out there are not gay.
ReplyDeleteYour reaction to what your friends said is normal... I went through that each time the bashing started. Now they would not do that when am around.
Whoa dude... I really wish you went out as well.
ReplyDeleteIf at first you don't succeed... Gypsies will be there next weekend :)
I found that quite poignant. Just remember that a lot of it is bravado and down also to sheer ignorance. It wasn't aimed at you personally, even though it felt like it at the time. If they really knew how personal you'd found it, at least some would think twice (and others might quietly think twice, but go on acting out).
ReplyDeleteGettin' down somewhere like Gypsies may well help you feel better about things, too - worth a try next time!
@Gay Nairobi man, Purpledew, Kahawamoto and Spiralx: I know I still shoulda gone out, but its kool and the gang - Im going out today... I cant wait!
ReplyDelete@Pater Nostra: Kuna vile nilikuwa nimekumiss - kiasi! And yeah, Imma keep my upper lip stiffened. Oh, and where's Mwauras and secrets lounge?
hey guys, i came to accept myself like 1 month ago. its been really depressing and i feel more lonely than ever in spite of being sorrounded by thousands of people(niko kenyatta uni). since my discovery, i've had many sleepless nights worrying about my future. i wish there was someone i could talk to.
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